who does she think she is, captivating all my thoughts like she has?
Not the most beautiful girl in the world...but she's the finest I've ever seen!
She's everything I want...I'm nothing that she even needs.
I call there's no answer..she texts me 30 seconds later sayin' she'll hit me back. I check my phone to see if it's still on. That anticipated call never comes.
I feel played...yet i yearn for even the slightest hint of attention regardless of how negative and self damning it may be to my soul.
who does she think she is, captivating all my thoughts like she has?
How can I be with others and only to imagine that they are her?
How can i convince her that i'm "THE ONE"...when I can't even convince myself.
Who does the think she is, captivating all my thoughts like she has?
I like her smile, i like her warmth...yet she pushes me away.
I pace. Back.Forth.To.And.Fro.
I'd go where she asked. as long as it was her asking.
I want her in my life...but she doesn't need me in hers.
She's social. Just not social enough to be with me.
i yell for her attention. She gives me the cold shoulder.
False promises. False hope.
I talk about her all the time. Yet, she's never met anyone that I know.
Maybe she doesn't exist. Maybe I've be alone too long. My fantasies have marred my reality.
I'd give an hour of time just to be in a minute of hers.
but my desires, along with my hearts' enternal fire are extiguished by her cold demeanor.
My sarcasm does nothing to her strong psyche.
I'm weak in her presence.
My loud voice becomes a whisper. My heart moans loudly, but comes across as a whimper.
Who does she think she is captiviating all my thoughts like she has?
I delete her number from my phone only to look at my bill online in hopes of coming across it again.
I'm a player that can't win. Can't win for losing. But I'm tired of playing. I'm too old for games.
And love is a game that i'll forfeit for the right person...but with her I can't even get on the roster.
She eventually calls me to go out to dinner....even though i just ate, I tag along and order vodka after vodka because i can't muster up the sober courage to tell her how i feel. she disregards my heartfelt emotions as drunken banter and laughs...We giggle in unison...only, I chuckle to mask the pain.
Love is pain. Pain is love. But does it have to hurt so deep? I thought falling in love was supposed to be fun...and even. Why does this feel like a one way street. My heart torn gps is sending me to Heartbreak Hotel and all the rooms are vacant. It's a one sided afair. She's right here and not knowing my heart is over there....
trampled.
hurt.
confused.
abused and feeling used.
i drop her off. i don't even go in....for what, dissappointment?
I hop in the car and every love song that's on makes me hate the ride home.
I shower and then i cower and glance at my phone.
i dial my voice mail to see if it's even on.
no missed calls. no texts. no thank you for the evening's meal...
this can't be life. this so isn't what's right.... this can't be real.
Who does she think she is captiviating all my thoughts like she has?
a few days later I man up. I decide to get myself together and purge her from my life, my thoughts....
4 days without a thought of her... she calls.
I make up an excuse that my phone reset and deleted all my numbers.
i'm not only a fool...i'm foolishly acting dumber.
She wants to go out. Says she hasn't seen me in a while and that she misses me.
the cycle of rejection repeats itself.
Who does she think she is captiviating all my thoughts like she has?
Not the most beautiful girl in the world...but she's the finest I've ever seen!
She's everything I want...I'm nothing that she even needs.
I call there's no answer..she texts me 30 seconds later sayin' she'll hit me back. I check my phone to see if it's still on. That anticipated call never comes.
I feel played...yet i yearn for even the slightest hint of attention regardless of how negative and self damning it may be to my soul.
who does she think she is, captivating all my thoughts like she has?
How can I be with others and only to imagine that they are her?
How can i convince her that i'm "THE ONE"...when I can't even convince myself.
Who does the think she is, captivating all my thoughts like she has?
I like her smile, i like her warmth...yet she pushes me away.
I pace. Back.Forth.To.And.Fro.
I'd go where she asked. as long as it was her asking.
I want her in my life...but she doesn't need me in hers.
She's social. Just not social enough to be with me.
i yell for her attention. She gives me the cold shoulder.
False promises. False hope.
I talk about her all the time. Yet, she's never met anyone that I know.
Maybe she doesn't exist. Maybe I've be alone too long. My fantasies have marred my reality.
I'd give an hour of time just to be in a minute of hers.
but my desires, along with my hearts' enternal fire are extiguished by her cold demeanor.
My sarcasm does nothing to her strong psyche.
I'm weak in her presence.
My loud voice becomes a whisper. My heart moans loudly, but comes across as a whimper.
Who does she think she is captiviating all my thoughts like she has?
I delete her number from my phone only to look at my bill online in hopes of coming across it again.
I'm a player that can't win. Can't win for losing. But I'm tired of playing. I'm too old for games.
And love is a game that i'll forfeit for the right person...but with her I can't even get on the roster.
She eventually calls me to go out to dinner....even though i just ate, I tag along and order vodka after vodka because i can't muster up the sober courage to tell her how i feel. she disregards my heartfelt emotions as drunken banter and laughs...We giggle in unison...only, I chuckle to mask the pain.
Love is pain. Pain is love. But does it have to hurt so deep? I thought falling in love was supposed to be fun...and even. Why does this feel like a one way street. My heart torn gps is sending me to Heartbreak Hotel and all the rooms are vacant. It's a one sided afair. She's right here and not knowing my heart is over there....
trampled.
hurt.
confused.
abused and feeling used.
i drop her off. i don't even go in....for what, dissappointment?
I hop in the car and every love song that's on makes me hate the ride home.
I shower and then i cower and glance at my phone.
i dial my voice mail to see if it's even on.
no missed calls. no texts. no thank you for the evening's meal...
this can't be life. this so isn't what's right.... this can't be real.
Who does she think she is captiviating all my thoughts like she has?
a few days later I man up. I decide to get myself together and purge her from my life, my thoughts....
4 days without a thought of her... she calls.
I make up an excuse that my phone reset and deleted all my numbers.
i'm not only a fool...i'm foolishly acting dumber.
She wants to go out. Says she hasn't seen me in a while and that she misses me.
the cycle of rejection repeats itself.
Who does she think she is captiviating all my thoughts like she has?
